I've been messed with, let down, and played too many times. I wonder what people think of me too much, and I'm way too judgmental. My heart is big but I have my selfish moments. I love to be in big groups, but I love to be alone. Every song on my ipod has a special memory or a regret behind it. I don't like going through old pictures because I miss what used to be. I tend to over think things and I trust way too many people. I have the people I'd love to pack up and leave with, and there are some people I wish would just disappear. I don't cry very often, but when I do I can't stop. I hate the word goodbye and I wish it didn't exist. I hate liars, though I lie myself. I have secrets hidden in me that even I don't know. I'm still finding things out about myself, so don't be quick to judge.

my smile can cover up what’s inside. though my heart is drowning, i can still laugh. even if my soul starts breaking down, i can still tell a joke. even if I’m dying inside, i can still look so funny. i guess that’s how life would go. i just have to smile and be happy even if the world is slowly killing me.

I believe the most difficult situation you can ever be faced with is deciding whether you should just move on or hold on a little tighter. Move on and maybe you'll lose a chance at the best thing that could have ever happened, or hold on and have the possibility of one day being the biggest disaster created.

she's banged up. mentally and emotionally.
literally and metaphorically. but every day
she walks outside with a smile on her face.
because that’s who she is.

If you really need him, fate won't let you lose him.  Fate will bring him back.  It may not be soon, but he'll come back

Maybe her laughter is a cry for help and that precious smile is a symbol for all her insecurities

Not even make up could make her beautiful, because real beauty comes from loving yourself and that's something she could never do.

I'm either always fighting to hold on or fighting to let go

Sometimes you just have to finally admit that you don't deserve any of this, and leave. Even if it's going to be the hardest thing you ever do.

Him: What are you good at?
Her: There's not a lot that I am good at. But I'm good at getting guys to want me. Not date me, or marry me, but want me.

Letting go doesn't mean we don't care. Letting go doesn't mean we shut down. Letting go means we stop trying to force outcomes and make people behave. It means we give up resistance to the way things are, for the moment. It means we stop trying to do the impossible–controlling that which we cannot–and instead, focus on what is possible.

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. You tend to give more than take in relationships. You need your space and privacy. You don't like to be smothered. You're secretly hoping your partner will change for you. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

We go to school every day. We learn pointless things, but we are never taught how to love ourselves. We aren't taught how to make moments last. But I think the most unfair thing, is that at the end of high school, we are tested on something that we were never taught. We have to stand in front of each other and say goodbye.

It's not right. To put so much effort, so much heart into a relationship but getting nothing in return. To give, to give your all in every way possible but be let down, over and over again. It's not fair.

And sometimes it hits me out of nowhere, all of a sudden this overwhelming sadness rushes over me. And I get discouraged and I get upset and I feel hopeless, sad, and hurt. And once again, I feel numb to the world.

Don't tell me you understand until you cry yourself to sleep every night; until you wish it would just end. Don't tell me to understand until you know how it feels to always be people's second, third and fourth choice.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONEEE!

i hope you all had more fun celebrating than i did. lol my night was so lame.

Heroes didn't leap tall buildings or stop bullets with an outstretched hand; they didn't wear boots and capes. They bled, and they bruised, and their superpowers were as simple as listening, or loving. Heroes were ordinary people who knew that even if their own lives were impossibly knotted, they could untangle someone else's. And maybe that one act could lead someone to rescue you right back.

In life, we do things. Some, we wish we had never done and some we wish we could replay a million times, but they make us who we are and, in the end, they shape and detail us. If we were to reserve them, we wouldn't be the person we are today. So, just live. Make mistakes and have wonderful memories. But, never second guess who you are, where you've been and, most importantly, where you're going.

How come in every relationship I'm in, it feels like I'm giving all I've got but I don't get anything in return and I'm the one always getting hurt?

Apologizing does not always mean that you are wrong and the other person is right. It just means that you value your relationship more than your ego.

the key is to trust people to be who they are.
instead, we trust who we want them to be,
and when they aren't, we cry.

The longest period of time, is waiting for something or someone you truly want.

I'm going to set you free because I don't deserve you. I deserve better.

You don't have to apologize because you're right. It just wasn't working out. I mean, it sucks, and I wish it was different, but it is what it is.

And you asked me if he was worth it, if this was worth it. I said, the thing is, the happiness that I feel when I'm with him is unlike any happiness I have ever experienced. But the sadness that consumes me during the long periods when the happiness is gone is unlike any sadness I've ever had, too. It is bottomless and makes me feel hopeless and sad and ugly. And I can't decide which one is more affecting. Can I live without the happiness, can I live with the sadness? I don't know, I don't know anything anymore.

what you say and how you look does not define who you are because some of the most beautiful people do the ugliest things. you owe it to the people who hate you, who disrespect you and who put you down because they're the ones who have made you who you are today, for keeping your head up and not breaking down when they want you to

A clean break is easier. You can reset it and it heals
and you move on, but if you leave things messy or
don’t get put right, then it hurts. Forever.
^soooo fucking true..

 The only thing I've learned is that you can't move on alone. You need someone else to show you that behind all the clouds, the sun is still shining.

If you don't go after what you want, you'll never get it. If you don't ask, the answer is always no. If you don't step forward, you're always in the same place.

You can't wait for someone to fly underneath you and save your life.
I think you have to save yourself.

sometimes i dont feel like continuing to live.
i dont want to kill myself,
i just want it all to stop or go away.
i want to be calm.
i want to be happy again.

Sometimes you just need to distance yourself
from people. If they care, they'll notice.
If they don't, you know where you stand.

I make mistakes & gain from them on my own.
Experience is my best teacher
Always was, always will be.
^clearly the one i relate to most..lol 

Over thinking
it's my thing. I sit there
over analyzing every little
thing you said, how you said it.
It plays over & over in my
head, trying to put all the pieces
together in my head. To figure
out what the truth really is.